Ta Da! December 15, 2008

Well, it’s the dawning of a new day–I bought my wedding shoes!!

 

Last October at the SMBC fall retreat my good friend Gary was giving his talk to everyone and he was discussing the idea that we’re really not promised tomorrow.  And citing me as an example, he told them that I would be looking for wedding shoes very soon for a wedding that may never actually come.  (Not implying here that Craig and I would call the wedding off, but implying that the other Bridegroom would come before Craig did…)

 

And as result, I actually put what I consider to be one of the more fun decisions I’ve made about the wedding off for quite longer than I thought I ever would.  But, I received a Target advertisement recently with a picture of some shoes that I knew would be perfect.  And yesterday I bought them. 

 

Now, I know they’re not the typical wedding shoes…but I’m not the typical bride now am I?  I love them, so please don’t diss.  (At least not to my face.)  And besides, other than a couple of pictures they’ll be hidden most of the day anyway.  Oh, and if you know of a place that carries this color of socks in a size 13 for Craig, I really want his socks to match my shoes.  And if my shoes get uncomfortable I’m throwing either a pair of Crocs on at the reception, or chucks.

 

http://www.target.com/Sigerson-Morrison-Target-Rocksie-Jeweled/dp/B001BB3FZO/qid=1229356219/ref=br_1_1/187-2639620-9567818?ie=UTF8&node=3429561&frombrowse=1&pricerange=&index=tgt-mf-mv&field-browse=3429561&rank=-product%5Fsite%5Flaunch%5Fdate&rh=&page=4

So Tired. December 2, 2008

Why is it so hard to find time for a break?  When I was in high school I ran around everywhere; from this practice to that, to school, to church, and out with friends, never ceasing from the running.  But, it was my decision.  I became overwhelmed and tired both emotionally and physically.  And so when I went to college I decided I would try and take it a little easier.

 

But college wasn’t much better.  Not necessarily because I chose to do a lot, but more because studying was what I had to do if I wanted to get through.  And that took a lot of time and a lot of focus. 

 

But now here I am.  I have no real excuse.  I really don’t do that much; granted I do have a wedding I’m planning and I teach Sunday school and go to work everyday, but in the evenings I really don’t do anything much.  I work out with Katie sometimes or we go shopping and have dinner, but that’s really about it.  But I feel like I don’t ever get a break.  I think that’s in part because the weekends are so booked with “stuff.”  Interviews with florists, dress fittings, and the most recent, Thanksgiving.  I was really hoping Thanksgiving would be restful this year; I thought both Craig and I were going to be commitment free at least one of the days of the vacation, but it just turned out that we weren’t.  And so here I am, the Tuesday after, feeling as though I haven’t slept in a week, feeling as though I haven’t had a day off to myself in over a year, and dreading the fact that I will be traveling to Iowa early Wednesday morning to stand in the cold all day Thursday and get home late that night, just in time to go to bed and get up for work the next day.  But what am I supposed to do about all this “stuff?”  If I tell my family that I can’t come to Thanksgiving because I just need a day off from things, then everyone starts to think there’s something wrong with me.  (I guess there is…it’s called exhaustion.)  But really, all I want right now is just one day with Craig, completely alone, a day all to ourselves to relax and remember why we’re getting married in the first place. 

 

Jesus was so good a taking time off.  I wish I was more like him in that arena.  I so look forward to April 5, 2009.  That will be a day of rest.  If the eternity of rest doesn’t come first.